This crazy life

I haven't been here for a while but plan on changing that. My life has been a bit hectic. PPD has really taken me for a ride. I am on an emotional roller coaster wanting to get off. I am lost, very confused about alot of things. I have been trying to work through things, salvage my marriage. At 40 yrs old, I never thought I would be this lost. My husband is thinking of joining the military, scary yes, benefits good, time apart, I dunno, job stability a plus. He is only 32, been ironworker for almost 10 years and tired of it. He wants change, so I support his choices and try to be strong. Maybe moving would be a good thing for us. Where we live now is going down hill so fast. California has really dissappointed me and it is not going to get any better. We are in a recession and it is not going to get any better anytime soon. Seems the only stable job now is the military, sad but true. I just have to figure out this life, get in a better frame of mind, get passed the PPD. This year has started off rough, 2 babies sick on and off, one son with broken elbow, another son struggling to graduate high school. A daughter struggling to find a job, another trying to find a better job and better life. I hope the rest of this year will be better for me and all 6 of my children. That's it for now, much love, me